15 Things You Might Not Know About Me...

• The longest thing I've enjoyed doing is writing, seven years (but I secretly think I'm not very good at it)
• I never admitted my first love because he didn't love me and I knew he never would. It has been years and I still haven't really forgiven him for hurting me like he did.
• I think every uncle is a pedophile. And I have a hard time envisioning pedophiles as any other ethnicity except Caucasian. 
• I am jealous of Indians. 
• I am overly thankful for all my friends because when I was a child I was so overweight that I thought that I would have no friends in highschool and that no boys would like me and I would live alone the rest of my life. 
• I'm not scared of blood because of the night she bled on me. I'm scared of blood because of the time I didn't think it would stop coming from my own SI at 14.
• I saw my first unrelated penis at age 9 when my friend pulled up a porn webpage on our computer and told me it was funny. (She turned out to be a lesbian)
• My first 'C' in a class was in Bible. (I went to a Private Christian School in early elementary school)
• I feel like I am living a lie because my parents think I am a Christian but I'm agnostic. I can't tell them because they would be very upset by it. And I don't want to hurt them because I love them more than I can even explain. 
• I haven't spoken to my brother in 6 months, except in one letter to explain that I haven't forgiven him and that I was glad he found Jesus. 
• I am suspicious of every conservative.
• I wish Walt Whitman was not gay because his poetry turns me on. 
• I think city lights are just as beautiful as stars. (but not more)
• I'm in love right now. After almost 2 years I am still madly in love with him. (It is one of the greatest accomplishments of my life)
• I have many secrets I still can't tell.